Dunia ini penuh dengan pengecut,
Mereka menginginkanmu menjadi
seperti mereka,
Menjadi menyedihkan, rendah hati, dan sopan
Ludahi wajah mereka,
Beraki mulut mereka,
Dunia yang dilanggar
Kutu-kutu kehidupan.
I can feel that I'm that I'm starting to loose my faith.
And I'm so caught in it.God is paying me His debts.
~
There used to be time where you can just hanging out with your friends and does'nt have to give a fuck about what's gonna happen to you. You're life is fucking perfect - You have your best friends , You're a brilliant student , You have the best job in the whole wide world , Money and Parent who loves you for who you are. All of a sudden, It's just gone. You got no one - nobody. The moment you realize it , It's just too late.
~
I keep having this dream - My life is tumbling down for the past 3 years of my life. It's this shit that keep giving me nightmares. And It's finally happen.
You can't sleep at night.
It's Karma ,
turning you're life upside down
and
bite you the fuck out.
Yeah...
It's my life...
But all in words I guess...
[Eminem]
Have you ever loved someone so much, you'd give an arm for?
Not the expression, no, literally give an arm for?
When they know they're your heart
And you know you were their armour
And you will destroy anyone who would try to harm 'em
But what happens when karma, turns right around and bites you?
And everything you stand for, turns on you, despite you?
What happens when you become the main source of a pain?
"Daddy look what I made", Dad's gotta go catch a plane
"Daddy where's Mommy? I can't find Mommy where is she?"
I don't know go play Hailie, baby, your Daddy's busy
Daddy's writing this song, this song ain't gonna write itself
I'll give you one underdog then you gotta swing by yourself
Then turn right around on that song and tell her you love her
And put hands on her mother, who's a spitting image of her
That's Slim Shady, yeah baby, Slim Shady's crazy
Shady made me, but tonight Shady's rocka-by-baby...
[Chorus]
And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain
Just smile back
And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain
Just smile back...
[Eminem]
I keep having this dream, I'm pushin' Hailie on the swing
She keeps screaming, she don't want me to sing
"You're making Mommy cry, why? Why is Mommy crying?"
Baby, Daddy ain't leaving no more, "Daddy you're lying
"You always say that, you always say this is the last time
"But you ain't leaving no more, Daddy you're mine"
She's piling boxes in front of the door trying to block it
"Daddy please, Daddy don't leave, Daddy - no stop it!"
Goes in her pocket, pulls out a tiny necklace locket
It's got a picture, "this'll keep you safe Daddy, take it withcha'"
I look up, it's just me standing in the mirror
These fuckin' walls must be talking, cause man I can hear 'em
They're saying "You've got one more chance to do right" - and it's to-night
Now go out there and show that you love 'em before it's too late
And just as I go to walk out of my bedroom door
It's turns to a stage, they're gone, and this spotlight is on
And I'm singing...
[Chorus]
[Eminem]
Sixty thousand people, all jumping out their seat
The curtain closes, they're throwing roses at my feet
I take a bow and thank you all for coming out
They're screaming so loud, I take one last look at the crowd
I glance down, I don't believe what I'm seeing
"Daddy it's me, help Mommy, her wrists are bleeding"
But baby we're in Sweden, how did you get to Sweden?
"I followed you Daddy, you told me that you weren't leavin'
"You lied to me Dad, and now you make Mommy sad
"And I bought you this coin, it says 'Number One Dad'
"That's all I wanted, I just want to give you this coin"
"I get the point - fine, me and Mommy are gone"
But baby wait, "it's too late Dad, you made the choice
"Now go up there and show 'em that you love 'em more than us"
That's what they want, they want you Marshall, they keep.. screamin' your name
It's no wonder you can't go to sleep, just take another pill
Yeah, I bet you you will. You rap about it, yeah, word, k-keep it real
I hear applause, all this time I couldn't see
How could it be, that the curtain is closing on me
I turn around, find a gun on the ground, cock it
Put it to my brain and scream "Die Shady" and pop it
The sky darkens, my life flashes, the plane that I was
supposed to be on crashes and burns to ashes
That's when I wake up, alarm clock's ringin', there's birds singin'
It's Spring and Hailie's outside swinging, I walk up to Kim and kiss her
Tell her I miss her, Hailie just smiles and winks at her little sister
Almost as if to say..
Whether this is love or just a big time wasted approach towards a relationship or just a bomb waiting to go on and all of a sudden it ends without me even know it. Seriously, I don't know how to react and I don't even know how to respond. And yes, I'm in love with him.
~
(gambor baru matured)
I have to admit that I always feel intimidatedby him in every way. He's smart, easy-going and sweetin my eyes. His sense of humor, intelligenceand sensitivityoften makes me feelso happy. Talking to him the second time is a big turn on in my life.I feel calm, happy and no doubt that love is in the air! ( I'm not kidding, this is genuinely beyond my expectation when it comes to stranger ) I know, he's a stranger
and I have no reason to feel so. But this is different, I kept thinking about him and yes, most of the time. He's cute and adorable. You can call me crazy this time which I rarely be.
~
He's soooo cute! ( aku mmg surrender bila tgk gambaq ni, dia sgt cute!)
And, I don't even know why I post his picture. But one thing I do know, I'M IN LOVE WITH HIM!!! This so bad, because of the fact that I don't have that fucking courage to tell him what I feel. Part of me - I love him. And the other part, which is my biggest problem is the fact that he's so intimidating. Intimidating in terms of intelligence and age. Yup! Age does matters. Why? Because of the fact that age difference differentiates us in terms of our way of thinking and what we want in our life. Older guy tend to have the needs to get married which I wanted it too.But, I just feel that marriage is definitely far beyond from what I want for the time being. But yes, I wanted it someday.
~
( aku suka yg bulu2 kat muka! Ahak! )
For me, He's different. He got he's own way of presenting himself to the world.It takes great courage to be who you wanted to be and not give a damn about what others think of you, which I can't even do it because I do care about what others think of me (and yet he can!) He gave me sleepless night every time I look at his picture.
~
The song that he posted on he's wall.It's he's way of telling me that he's falling in love with me! Huhu! It's because of this song that gave me sleepless night.
~
I will never find another luva sweeta than you,
Sweeta than you
And I will never find anutha luva more precious than you
More precious than you
Girl you are
Close to me you're like my mother
Close to me you're like my father
Close to me you're like my sister
Close to me you're like my brutha
You are the only one my everything and for you this song I sing
And all my life
I've prayed for someone like you
And I thank God that I, that I finally found you
All my life
I've prayed for someone like you
And I hope that you feel the same way too
Yes, I pray that you do love me too
I said you're all that I'm thinkin' of.....baby
Said, I promise to never fall in love with a stranger
You're all I'm thinkin' of, I praise the Lord above
For sending me your love, I cherish every hug
I really love you
And all my life, baby, baby, I've prayed for someone like you,
And I thank God that I, that I finally found you, baby
All my life I've prayed for someone like you
And I hope that you feel the same way too
Yes, I pray that you do love me
You're all that I ever known
When you smile, on my face, all I see is a glow
You turned my life around
You picked me up when I was down
You're all that I ever known
When you smile on your face all I see is a glow
You picked me up when I was down
You're all that I ever known
When you smile on your face all I see is a glow
You picked me up when I was down
And I hope that you feel the same way too
Yes I pray that you do love me too
All my life
I've prayed for someone like you
And I thank God that I, that I finally found you
All my life I've prayed for someone like you
Yes, I pray that you do love me too
All my life I've prayed for someone like you
And I thank God that I, that I finally found you
All my life I've prayed for someone like you
Yes, I pray that you do love me too
~
( bila hati dah suka - aku suka gaya beliau! )
My biggest problem is - Of course I'm such a coward to tell him that I feel the same way as he does. He's just too intimidating and sweet. And I'm just a wasted, country kid full of weird imagination about being a Vampire.
~
The song that I posted in my wall - My way of telling him " Dear stranger, I'm talking to you and YES I feel the same way " .Why this song? Because of this
(sama kan??? Ahak! Bob Marley = Mesin Cetak! Hensemmmmm! )
Still, I'm too chicken-shit to talk to him directly that I feel the same way - I L o v e U T o o . May God give me the courage to speak to him. I hope that this is the beginning of my love life and I hope to God that he's the one.
~
~ I'M IN LOVE ~
You'll never know how much I really love you.
You'll never know how much I really care.
Listen,
Do you want to know a secret?,
Do you promise not to tell?, whoa oh, oh.
Closer,
Let me whisper in your ear,
Say the words you long to hear,
I'm in love with you.
Listen,
Do you want to know a secret?,
Do you promise not to tell?, whoa oh, oh.
Closer,
Let me whisper in your ear,
Say the words you long to hear,
I'm in love with you.
I've known the secret for a week or two,
Nobody knows, just we two.
Listen,
Do you want to know a secret?,
Do you promise not to tell?, whoa oh, oh.
Closer,
Let me whisper in your ear,
Say the words you long to hear,
I'm in love with you.
He is the curator and custodian of the Merrylin Cryptid collection. The study and documentation of the evolution and biology of unclassified species and research pertaining to prehistoric human and non human civilization.
His Book
~ Many Dead Things - The Specimen Of Lord Merrylin ~
He had released a book, detailing the collection up until 2009, but much more is yet to uncovered. Documenting and analyzing the collection takes a great deal of time and money.
The Collection
~
~ The Lycanthropy (werewolf) research of Edward Harrell ~
